i'm still alliiiiiive

so i know. it's been MONTHS. it's been BUSY and i'm sorry for that. i was just sitting here on a thursday night thinking about my last class, which graduated in july. i had the TOP FIVE students of ALL the graduating classes, thank you, thank you.

i was going to tell you a story here, but i dont think i'd better, considering my students could find this and it's about one of them.

suffice it to say- my life has been hectic. june was taken up with a wedding, which went very well for the bride and groom and was utterly disappointing to me, personally. i had asked someone i know here to go with me, in the hopes of simply being social with him. you all know me- it's not like i was asking to have babies or anything. i just wanted to get to know him outside of the relationship we had had previously. he said yes and then proceeded to NOT talk to me. nice, very nice. i was angry, yes, but mostly shocked because i truly havent ever been treated so poorly, so publicly before. we're friendly now and that's okay with me. i certainly had a crush, but it was gone PROMPTLY that night!

then, we had finals, and graduation, which went very well. i spent 2 weeks going over every little detail of the finals and internship to make sure all work was done. it was grueling and i honestly spent pretty much every waking moment on it for 2 weeks straight. i was a wreck by the time classes ended.
the graduation was amazing, though, and i was so very proud of my students. they were a complete joy to come into every day and i was sorry to see that relationship end.

i was home for most of august and i have to say, i loved ALL of it. i reconnected with many of you and made a really great connection with an old family friend. it was unbelievably difficult to come back to barbados, which has felt like home for a long enough period of time that i was shocked.

i'm trying to realize my place in the world at the moment and will definitely have an update sooner than a couple of months.

i am feeling loved and filled with love lately, in a way not known or understood before, and it goes out to all of you. thank you so much for being patient with me and for continuing to call and stay connected!